tune off and drop out

[percival]

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I just dropped out of a Zen sesshin that was supposed to run over four days, starting tomorrow evening, at the last second. There are several reasons for this:
- I am still very tired - I need time and space to veg out
- I have a lot to do (i.e. my taxes and a presentation for Monday and a lecture to prepare for Wednesday), and I can't cram that into Monday morning and Wednesday afternoon. I wanted to do the taxes last Saturday, but I was just ... too tired.
- The Youth Hostel where the sesshin is held is potentially not very warm
- Even though there's only 4-5 hours of sitting meditation over the course of each day, I'll be stiff and it will be hard to maintain my concentration. It certainly won't be as restful as a calm weekend at home.

I know that I potentially took a place somebody else might have wanted. I do feel a little guilty, especially because this is more or less my last chance at a sesshin for quite a while. Anyway, I'll pay full price for something I didn't do, so at least I'm not cheating them out of money.

Comments

[wang1961.livejournal.com]

"Even though there's only 3-4 hours of sitting meditation over the course of each day"

WIMP SESSHIN!!!

If it causes you great stress to even think about going, don't go. You took the right decision.