pain and spirituality

After Inverness, I was convinced that attending Mass was too painful for me.

But then, four things got me thinking again:

- Jack Kornfield: you should choose a spiritual path and stick to it. Explore it fully, and don't flit from
practice to practice

- Ezra Bayda: you need to face your pain and not run away from it.

- seraphimsigrist's remark that it's the bread that counts, not the paraphernalia

- my parents asking me whether I was still going to mass

So I've decided that I will try to face mass again - in Spain, hopefully an early morning mass.
Some of the most pleasing and spiritually uplifting masses I've attended were masses where it was just the liturgy - no sermon, no music.

I want to recapture that.

Prayers most welcome - I don't want to disconnect from God because I'm afraid of certain forms of worship / meditation.