Insight at Quaker Meeting
Oct. 3rd, 2004 02:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
percivalSo I'm currently refusing with all my might to bend to my parents' will. Yet the gift that seems to be coming through, the gift of healing, requires me to submit to God's will. For a long time, this has been my only and most powerful prayer: Thy will be done.
But do I really want to do God's will? Do I really trust Him to lead me well?
That might be what's preventing me from a regular meditation practice, from a regular self-healing practice. If I give spiritual development a larger place in my life than weekly attendance at zazen and Quaker Meeting, where will it take me? What will a "whole" Perceval do that a "broken" one can avoid quite nicely, thank you very much?
Living adventurously, which is what Quakers believe we are supposed to do, isn't just fun, it's also painful, scary, and downright unsettling.
And yet there's this quote in "Towards Wholeness", the newsletter of the Friends' Fellowship of Healing, that struck me:
"We are not all required to do the same tasks in life, nor the impossible, but to respond genuinely to one another and to use our talents well. Or, if you are a Harry Potter fan, Dumbledore explains to Harry, "it's not our abilities that show what we truly are - it's our choices."" (Joolz Saunders, Transforming Light, in: Towards Wholeness 107, p. 5)
But do I really want to do God's will? Do I really trust Him to lead me well?
That might be what's preventing me from a regular meditation practice, from a regular self-healing practice. If I give spiritual development a larger place in my life than weekly attendance at zazen and Quaker Meeting, where will it take me? What will a "whole" Perceval do that a "broken" one can avoid quite nicely, thank you very much?
Living adventurously, which is what Quakers believe we are supposed to do, isn't just fun, it's also painful, scary, and downright unsettling.
And yet there's this quote in "Towards Wholeness", the newsletter of the Friends' Fellowship of Healing, that struck me:
"We are not all required to do the same tasks in life, nor the impossible, but to respond genuinely to one another and to use our talents well. Or, if you are a Harry Potter fan, Dumbledore explains to Harry, "it's not our abilities that show what we truly are - it's our choices."" (Joolz Saunders, Transforming Light, in: Towards Wholeness 107, p. 5)
