update

[percival]

Did some writing both yesterday and the day before. It's remarkably easy to sit down and do it if it's just for 15 minutes ...
I'm working on a letter to Severus in which I demonstrate that Severus ships both H/H and H/D (only joking, my friends).

I also re-closed my escape hatches until April 1. It's intriguing - committing myself not to commit suidice is quite effective in combatting suicidal thoughts. I just can't risk to go there.

My niece appears to be a healthy baby, thank God. She was born with hydrocephalus. I can't wait to see her in April!

Comments

[shellebelle93.livejournal.com]

I'm glad things are going well for you. Keep writing. I also find that if I'm having Dark Thoughts, writing helps me clarify and focus better and get out of it quicker. I usually write about things in my life which are good and things in my life I wish to improve and doing that helps me to get out of the Dark Thought mindframe and into a more optomistic state.

[perceval.livejournal.com]

Ah - then I should stop writing about Severus ... although HP is one of the really good things in my life!

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[shellebelle93.livejournal.com]

No, no, no, I mean JOURNALING! Fiction is different altogether. In fiction, I get to *explore* the Dark without necessarily feeling terrible. Black thoughts sometimes *help* in fiction. But in journaling, you're exploring your own thoughts and feelings. It often makes me feel better, anyway.

So write away about Severus, especially if you identify with that character. I identify most with Hermione,Harry, Ginny, and, of course, H/G. I actually find it hard to write about Severus. I actually admire anyone who can write Severus and do it believably. Sorry if I wasn't clear on my last post! The last thing I want to do is discourage anyone from writing fanfic!

[perceval.livejournal.com]

Oops - I forgot the :) in my first message ...

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[shellebelle93.livejournal.com]

Whew! ;-)

[soupytwist.livejournal.com]

Er, ditto to the above? :) Hope things continue to get better for you.

[piperx.livejournal.com]

Good to hear from you.

Glad you'll be around this month because 29 is going to be a good year for you. Think of it as a fresh start. Put the badness of the last year behind you. Keep your chin up -- things *will* get better. You just have to get through the rough spots.

Even though I have been trying to get pregnant for a year, my friend has convinced me that last month was the official start of my trying-to-get-pregnant period so it's only officially been two months, not a year. I prefer not to think of it as lying to myself but having a really good practice session to better prepare me for the real thing. Whatever works.

So are you still interested in chatting about sperm counts and strange pangs or would you rather not discuss it now that you're taking a break from attempts at conception?

~Piper

[perceval.livejournal.com]

so it's only officially been two months, not a year.

Good strategy!

So are you still interested in chatting about sperm counts and strange pangs

Oooh, more than ever! In fact, I'm now absolutely certain that the last two months, I lost two babies who failed to implant. So now I'm preparing my body so that the next baby has a fair chance of staying put!

[piperx.livejournal.com]

That's the spirit! So you're on to your third month of trying then? ;-)

[perceval.livejournal.com]

No, I'll just start counting again after June.
In the mean time, I hope that the fertility clinic can give
hubby and myself the all clear. All these tests sound
really icky, and I'd hoped to be pregnant before I had to
undergo them

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