update

[percival]

Did some writing both yesterday and the day before. It's remarkably easy to sit down and do it if it's just for 15 minutes ...
I'm working on a letter to Severus in which I demonstrate that Severus ships both H/H and H/D (only joking, my friends).

I also re-closed my escape hatches until April 1. It's intriguing - committing myself not to commit suidice is quite effective in combatting suicidal thoughts. I just can't risk to go there.

My niece appears to be a healthy baby, thank God. She was born with hydrocephalus. I can't wait to see her in April!

Comments

[shellebelle93.livejournal.com]

I'm glad things are going well for you. Keep writing. I also find that if I'm having Dark Thoughts, writing helps me clarify and focus better and get out of it quicker. I usually write about things in my life which are good and things in my life I wish to improve and doing that helps me to get out of the Dark Thought mindframe and into a more optomistic state.

[perceval.livejournal.com]

Ah - then I should stop writing about Severus ... although HP is one of the really good things in my life!

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[shellebelle93.livejournal.com]

No, no, no, I mean JOURNALING! Fiction is different altogether. In fiction, I get to *explore* the Dark without necessarily feeling terrible. Black thoughts sometimes *help* in fiction. But in journaling, you're exploring your own thoughts and feelings. It often makes me feel better, anyway.

So write away about Severus, especially if you identify with that character. I identify most with Hermione,Harry, Ginny, and, of course, H/G. I actually find it hard to write about Severus. I actually admire anyone who can write Severus and do it believably. Sorry if I wasn't clear on my last post! The last thing I want to do is discourage anyone from writing fanfic!

[perceval.livejournal.com]

Oops - I forgot the :) in my first message ...

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[shellebelle93.livejournal.com]

Whew! ;-)