sorry for the last entry ...

[percival]

.. I just had a mini fertility-related breakdown. Thank you to all who recognised this and gave me hugs. angelofthenorth has NO RESPONSIBILITY for that breakdown whatsoever. In fact, I must sincerely thank her because she has (inadvertently perhaps) brought to the surface preconceptions and fears that I need to face and heal.

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[angelofthenorth.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm writing a long post at the moment.

It's got ranty in places. You see, I was nearly the foster child you'd be rejecting - mum asked me, age 9, if I wanted to go and live in a foster family. She'd even made enquiries with my social worker. I wasn't a problem child. I just had two sick parents who couldn't deal with a normal youngster.

My Social Worker was a wonderful woman. In fact, all the SWs I've known have been wonderful.
My realgodmother (i.e. not Dana/Motherboard from Ship of Fools) adopted two kids aged 9 and 11. Maggie, the elder one, left at 16, because Sue&Dave were moving to France, and she found it too isolated, but their adopted son is still happy with them. Maggie is still in close touch.

And not all problem children are problems to the people that get them. E, a child I know, has Asperger's. A nightmare to some people, but I get on fine with her, because I understand the condition, and can use what i know to improve things for her.

You have some amazing skills. You're intelligent, literate, able to communicate, and have a lot of love to give. Considering adoption/fostering may well take the pressure off your ovaries/uterus to perform, and you may find that by opening up yourself to the possibility you might find the knot that you've tied there, and let it heal.

[perceval.livejournal.com]

*hugs* to you, too. Thank you for talking so openly and honestly about this issue.

I'm definitely thinking about adoption, and have been for a while, because it would mean giving an orphan a chance to grow up in a loving family.