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I'm going to miss my first massage customer, because I STUPIDLY and BLINDLY got a teaching job without checking my diary. 4 hours, £60, but still a VERY BAD start to this. It's as if I'm sabotaging myself. The massage time should be sacred, time that nothing else can touch. Yet I'm constantly failing to follow up on things, failing to send out copies of my certifications, opening my business bank account, notifying the Inland Revenue. Is it because I don't want this or is it because I feel that there's some sort of prohibition? Especially after the recent altercation with my parents ...